Afterthoughts.

I cant believe that it’s going to be 7 months but at the same time it feels like we’ve been in a relationship for quite some time already. Hun, everything feels so right when I’m with you and you’re like that beacon of light I look forward to every week. I can see it in your eyes that it’s the same for you too and I’m really thankful for that.

You said that I am always your bae. And that you wouldn’t leave me over something so insignificant. And that you would never turn your back and leave me for no reason. And that you love me. I don’t want to envision our future together, only to see it falter. I’m sorry for my random mood swings and for implicating any negative emotions in you.

I never want to see you so worked up again like that day. I said that I can’t promise you that life with me would be always perfect or easy either but I promise I’m only here to stay. I said that I’ll never stop trying, and that I’ll always be here for you and to hold your hand regardless. Thank you not only for appearing in my life, but also for staying all these while.

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Finally 20.?

As you get older, you tend to expect less and less on your birthday and it starts to get less significant whether you celebrate it or not. But nevertheless, thanks everybody who made the effort to make my day a little more special. And thank you for spending the day, no I mean the weekend, with me. Your mere company was more than enough, I mean it. And that promise you made, I’ll hold it close to my heart but you know I don’t ask for much from you. Just, stay by my side when I need you.

On a side note I want to get my driving license and go on a solo trip before I turn 21.

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Thanks Kris for the lovely flowers!

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XV.

One thing for sure, is that I honestly didn’t expect this to work out. Not that I didn’t have faith in you or in us, but seriously just what were the chances man? Really, love comes when you least expect it. I wasn’t expecting anything out of this when I met you for the first time but somehow things worked out for us babe.

Thank you for the endless laughter and smiles, for the little butterflies you give me every time I see you, for making these past months much more meaningful, for your time, for your effort, for just anything and everything. You mean so much more to me than I often express and I’m really afraid of losing you. So precious indeed.

I try to focus on the ‘right now’ and live in the moment as we spend our time together rather than overthink our relationship. Enjoying and soaking in all the joy, passion and positive energy between us and trying to be even more appreciative of what we have just because. Let go of the small issues and try to focus on the big picture. Though it seems like we already understand quite a fair bit about each other, we definitely still have a lot to learn about each other.

‘Let go of any worry and just enjoy the times we spend together and be there for you like I always have.’

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I love you.

 

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I’m so scared that I’ll lose you. I’m so scared that I’d do something that would annoy you. But what is love really? Shouldn’t it be a relationship whereby I’m able to be myself infront of you and not be scared of anything. But then again you start to be scared of losing something when you treasure it a lot. So I’m right, right? Right that you’re not temporary, right that you are everything that they were not, and that’s why we will definitely work out not for the short term but for the long term. I thought it would take alot for me to fall for someone again but you just make it so easy. I’m just so reassured by you every time you tell me miss me, that you want me there with you right there and then. It makes me feel as though you actually want me, that it’s not all in my head. I can’t help but smile and sigh to myself whenever I see you. I love how we can just cuddle all day and I feel so safe in your embrace. I love how I always catch you looking at me and you just shrug it off as though it’s a given to do so. I love how straightforward you are with your feelings and not make me doubt your actions. I love how you appreciate intimacy as much as I do. Not just making out but long tender kisses with lingering eye contact and eskimo kisses. Are you feeling this too? It feels as though we’ve known each other for pretty long when in actual fact it has only been about 3 months. I wonder if you think about us as often as I do. You tell me that you hope you don’t get too attached to me but in actual fact I’m afraid of telling you how much I’m attached to you already because I’m scared that I would scare you away.

I want to be sure of us, I want to be sure of my feelings, I want to be sure of your feelings. I want there to be an us in the future, I want there to be a me in your future, I want there to be a you in my future.

I really don’t know how this will end up but I’m sure of one thing, you are very important to me and I’ve surpassed the point where i can bear to lose you.

Halfway through with 2017.

It’s already nearing the end of May. Time is really ‘speedy-ing’ its way through 2017 and it’s starting to get more difficult to juggle between work, having a life and maintaining your relationships. Started work at a commercial lab about a month ago and things seem to be going pretty ok apart from the fact that the pay is pathetically little. Haven’t been dancing in a long while though so life’s pretty meh and mundane. Firstly, am pretty broke and secondly it’s so damn tiring after work already. Kudos to those people who are able to go and gym after work or even better still wake up early to run.

Figured I needed an update in my life as this year is passing ridiculously fast. Went on two trips before my graduation this year and now that I’m back, I already can’t wait to go on another trip again.

Taiwan was da bomb with the non stop eating, and shopping alongside with its beautiful scenery and beautiful weather. My hair was totally digging the climate man, zero maintenance needed. We went to both Taipei and Taichung and it was kind of stress planning the whole trip on my own (which I eventually fucked up because I missed my flight back), but it was definitely a lesson that I wouldn’t forget. I want to bring my mum to another country next. Perhaps next year or so? Really should look into buying a savings plan.Processed with VSCO with f2 presetProcessed with VSCO with c1 presetProcessed with VSCO with hb2 presetProcessed with VSCO with hb1 preset

Australia was just as beautiful, with a more chill vibe. Food was relatively on the pricier side, but beer was cheap af. And again, the weather was perfect for my hair apart from the freezing temperatures in the early mornings which I so fortunately got to experience. My teeth were chattering in the 10d.c cold, how am I going to stand snow in Korea like this? Two ticks off my bucket list as I got my first tattoo done and skydived down the great ocean road. Heck both were one hell of an experience and really no regrets man.

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Big thanks to my best friend, Winnie for tagging along with me on this trip (even though you can be so blur and overly attached at times). Makes a big difference that you were there with me and cheers to many more trips together again.

Mid Feb. Valentine

I managed to reshuffle my schedule to revisit Adventure Cove the other day and honestly it did no give me enough thrill. Yes it was pretty fun and all, but amidst all the queues and crowds, it took too long to ride the most adrenaline pumping ride and the other rides were pretty mundane as compared to it. Spent majority of my time in the wave pool and the lazy river (with a life vest of course since I can’t swim for nuts). Loving the bikini I got from Taobao though, should put it more to good use and perhaps bring it when I go overseas.

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(Some shameless photo-shoot going on) 😅

So it was February 14th yesterday, Happy Valentine’s Day! My day was well spent, with lots of good food (going to get fat at this rate). Thank you to Winnie too for the wonderful dinner and company. ☺️

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What would become of me from here on?

8 more days to end of poly, freedom’s just around the corner.

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Kung Hei Fat Choy

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Finally a break from everything. I have been so looking forward to Chinese New Year despite the fact that I barely had any time to even shop for my new year clothes. That aside, Chinese New Year this year was pretty good with a few spontaneity here and there. I am really digging the whole off shoulder thing with my new skirts and I seriously need to do them justice and find more chances to actually dress up and wear them throughout the year. After this, I has 2 more tests, 1 final exam and my final FYP presentation to over come. Just need to nail the presentation and pass the rest (pretty screwed up priorities yes I know), but hey come on give me a break I’m so damn done with studying. 😅

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Yes that’s colourpop ultra matte lip in ‘Viper’ on me and I’m digging my blue-ish grey contacts which I may be too lazy to wear in the future. 🙂 Anyways, just a quick update on how far I am from graduating. I really need start wrapping up my Taiwan trip plans and make my final bookings fast. After this trip, I swear I’m going to be so broke my bank account will be of negative value. Do you see why I desperately need to work part time to save my sorry ass now? All’s well at work now though, bosses are damn nice, working environment is good too. I should be working there until I find a solid job, perhaps around May?

Till then,

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